It is a re-commitment to myself to see my weight loss journey through to the end. While I haven't lost any weight this last year, it was a definite learning experience. Old habits die hard, and one cheat weekend away can send me out of my low carb mentality and straight to junk food city.
I battled scale obsession, stepping on the scale nearly every time I went into the bathroom. I even tried to remove the scale to no success.
I tried and failed at being a Beachbody Coach, hoping to not only help myself and others.
I learned I can handle some pretty intense workouts with a little bit of modification (HELLO INSANITY!)
I also learned I can maintain my weight with thought.
So that said, I had enough of the up and down of the same 12 pounds and have committed to focusing on getting back on track with low carb eating (that has been the only thing that has worked for me).
I decided after we had Taco Fresco the other night that I would not eat out again until November 23rd (which is when we go get family photos, and right before Thanksgiving).
I wrote it down on my kitchen white board and then decided that I would also commit to 100% low carb.
Then, I wrote a quick blog about it.
Then I decided I would not weigh myself until October 23rd, and then again on November 23rd. I emptied the batteries out of my scale, and put the batteries and scale in two different places.
I took my notebook and input every date until then, and marked them Days 1 - 57. I lamented that it wasn't quite 60 days, but Thanksgiving...seriously. Pumpkin Pie people.
Then I started.
I did fairly well yesterday. I made sure I woke up, drank a 16 oz glass of water right away. I did a sort of sad workout that consisted of a warm-up of jogging, some jumping jacks, but then I practiced with my bokken (wooden katana sword for practice) and some of my other ninjutsu techniques I am learning. I think the class will be very positive for me mentally and physically. I have worked out but never had set goals in mind with where I wanted to be and the Aiki Ninjutsu is giving me a picture of that. I want to be quicker, and more flexible. I want a better mind-body connection so that I move less clumsily. I want to be able to do a damn push-up.
So I also added on a 25 second plank (it was as long as I could do), three good form sit-ups (sad, I know), and a very very sad attempt at a real push-up, and some very sad attempts at knee push ups. My core isn't very strong so it makes it hard for me to lower myself, hence the planks.
While not a super intense workout, I am reaching for goals that are practical for what I am studying, and that means I am more likely to continue because I am one of those people that does things for others. While I want to be fit and lose weight it has never been enough to do it for myself or do it for any reason that is not observed. It has not been motivation enough, but improving my fitness and skills so that my instructor and fellow classmates can see I am improving is motivation. Ridiculous at 31, I know.
Anyway, after all that, my food went pretty well for the day, and I finished at 53 carbs. That's three carbs over my max of 50, but for a first day back, I consider that pretty good.
I also went on a walk and then took Lilly on a bike ride.
It was a good first day.
I am hoping to update here every day. I left space in my notebook to write my water and food on the front of the page and a journal on the back of the page. I have to commit to spending the time on it which is difficult with a demanding toddler around so I am sure I will miss logging some days on here, but I will definitely be keeping up with it and re-capping each day, even if some posts have two or three days in them.
Remember: I believe in myself. I am confident. I can accomplish my goals.
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